ok i just HAVE to settle this. it's so annoying, like someone incessantly tapping at your shoulder... just because.

look. YOU decided how you wanted things to be, so why try and change things now?it's your choice. live with it.

what you did is something i really will not stand for. i will not stand for you having blatantly lied to me and betrayed what trust i might have had in you. and i will not tolerate the stinking double standards.

it was your choice to lie to me. for someone so smart, i can't imagine how it didn't strike you that you were telling everyone anyway; i was bound to find out.
and then to keep denying it.
urgh.


i don't need justification. look. since you were being so cautious about being discrete and all that bullshit, you must have thought this out through. and since you did and decided to take the actions that you took, i'll accept it.


this is my stand now. YOU defined how close we are, not me. now don't expect me to behave like nothing's changed, just because you wish for it to be so. i didn't live in denial before, and i don't wish to start doing so anytime. especially for someone who's not quite worth it.


i'm not bitter. i am, however, surer of what kind of friendship we share. and i'm happier with this arrangement, actually. though obviously i'll never let you know. HAHA. i'm not angry, though i do admit it might seem so sometimes (ie when you're trying so hard to get me to listen to your "justification", and i just turn a deaf ear). i don't mean it in a nasty way, but you're simply not worth it.


now stop trying to make like nothing's happened.